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[greenpea]

@Sparky79  thank you Sparky79. you are a kind and caring person. i will remember your words.  your gf is lucky to have you and i am sure she knows that 🙂

[Gibbs]

@greenpea not sure I will might watch something I have recorded. I like scrabble my 9 year old grandson beats me ar chess

[Sparky79]

@greenpea yeah, ex girlfriend, after she dumped me for my "selfish and gutless" actions in trying to escape this planet. One of the many ripples, consequences of surviving.

[greenpea]

@Gibbs  seriously i love scrabble! i play with my mum when i go and visit her.   i am not that good at chess but will give it a go 🙂

[greenpea]

@Sparky79i have had thoughts tried once or twice as a teenager but now am determined to make a go at what is left of my life.  not waste another minute 🙂

[greenpea]

@Sparky79  i want a caring soul. a forgiving soul. someone who is a friend first but is also a heathcliffe!

[Sparky79]

@greenpea well I'm glad you're still here and everyone else who's thought about and or survived. Knowing the grief, damage and pain I've caused I'll never try it again. Quite a lesson to learn as well, seeing all the emotion, all the grief, all the pain and suffering I've caused, the chain of events I triggered was more than life changing it felt like the apocalypse at first.

[greenpea]

@Sparky79  you are a good guy Sparky79. it is hard to get past guilt.

[Sparky79]

@greenpea We all need a caring, understanding, patient and forgiving soul, especially when life and bad people have damaged us. The thing I need to learn is to not sacrifice myself, speak up if something upsets me or I don't agree with, rather than giving my queen everything she wants at the cost of myself. Gotta love the scars from being married to a narcissist for 17 years. 

[greenpea]

@Sparky79  wow my mental health nurse once said to me she would rather deal with a psychopath than a narcissist! wow you did well lasting so long! "speak up if something upsets me or I don't agree with, rather than giving my queen everything she wants at the cost of myself. "  yes it is a juggling act isnt it.  relationships can be hard at the best of times but sometimes you just have to take a gamble and jump in!