too many thoughts

[Eden1919]

i feel really weird and like idk what to do because it feels like i am supposed to be on this mission to save the universe and it is really hard to explain and at the same time i am trapped in an inefficient body which i need to get out of but that means getting out of this world ugh it is hard to explain i just dont know what to do i have all these thoughts and ideas and i feel like i need to talk to someone about everything but when i go to they take the thoughts out of my head that i need to communicate idk how to explain it. i am just really confused because everything feels really alive even the trees were calling me again and like everything is a lot but i also kind of feel terrible at the same time idk it is really weird i am not good at explaining how can you sort through all your thoughts when there are too many of them?  

[rav3n]

hey @Eden1919 having so many different thoughts pile up sounds like a lot! my go-to method for untangling my thoughts and feelings is writing/journaling. making note of what thoughts pop up and what's been going on for me sometimes helps me find a pattern (usually my thoughts/feelings are more intense or confusing when i'm really anxious about something in my life).

do you have a journal where you can document some of those thoughts/feelings? are there grounding tools you can lean on when things feel weird?

[Eden1919]

@rav3n  yes i have tried writing it down but it is complicated and difficult and idk writing it down doesnt feel like enough idk why idk how to explain it i just ugh it is hard. 

[Oaktree]

@Eden1919 @rav3n 

Hi @Eden1919 

Too many thoughts all at once sounds overwhelming. It also sounds really frustrating that you are having trouble communicating them with others. It does sound really confusing. Hopefully by talking about it here you can find some helpful strategies. 

I agree with Rav3n, writing the thoughts down could be helpful. That way when you try and talk about them with a therapist or some other person you have something you can look at to help you with the words. It doesn't need to be a proper journal, just a pad of paper would do. If you live with someone else, you would want to put it away somewhere safe so that it's private. Journalling can be incredibly helpful in working things out. Also grounding exercises could help you to feel more in your body. You can google those. There are quite a few and different people find different ones suit them better so you may need to experiment to find ones that resonate with you. I hope this is helpful?

[Eden1919]

@Oaktree  i tried writing some of it down for my psychologist for my appointment that i had today and the problem is there wasnt much she could do to help. and like i can write it down all i want but it isnt helping idk why it just i feel like it is more intense than that idk hw to explain what i am trying to say and there is just so much going on but i am not sure if i can say exactly what on here... 

[Oaktree]

@Eden1919 

Sorry that your psychologist couldn't help. I don't know what else to suggest. You probably can't go into details here. It sounds like it is a very confusing time for you. Maybe if you try to clear your mind using a meditation technique like leaves on a stream for a bit of respite. It's okay if you get intrusive thoughts while you try and do this. Just keep attaching your thoughts to leaves and letting them float away. 

[fruitisgood]

hey @Eden1919  Im just another fellow human having their own experiences. I often try to come up with and use visual anologies to describe my feelings and experiences when words just dont quite cut it.  

I relate to the experience you describe of being intensely overwhelmed with thoughts. So many that it feels like theyre gone before I consciously can grasp them. Physically writing can be good, however when Im that pent up, its not enough. I voice journal alot for this reason. I put on my voice recorder and just go for it. When Im feeling more grounded later on, I may go back and listen to them (but not always) and write down notes. I sometimes do this for therapy.  

When Im feeling this way, being advised to ground/ meditate/ breath just doesnt feel helpful. I need to release that stuck energy first and make waves before I can let the ripples settle.  

If Im REALLY pent up, I will literally dance/ move/ air punch/ stomp/ whatever while Im talking at the same time. I do this at home alone where noone else can see me so I feel as safe as I possibly can be.  

When we feel intensely, the world around us gets overwhelming fast and the clouds of despair creep in and start to shroud everything. Sometimes a loud 'bang' is needed to clear the air first. 

[REDLINEZ750]

yeah journaling was always hard trying to write as fast as things go through the mind, papers still blank  after  enough  thought  to fill a book @Eden1919 

last year i saw  journaling with AI and it is  a game changer,

you can set up its persona its reactions how it prompts theres  speech or type options

has continuation, basicly tune it to whatever  suits you  & different versions  can be switched to matching your moods.

can help with daily goals and summarise entries if asked its very individual to user and secure

eg mines set to have combined principles taught by  carl jung,, gabor mate and jordan peterson.

it has not needed changing and remarkable difference as was going give it up on factory settings.

 that does cost me 30 a month however there are free versions too if that sounds like could help its far from journaling as we grew up with im 50 odd though.

i hope you find what you need, not all psychologists will say unable to help coz one or two do and unfortunately just finding right fit is its own process sometimes 

[Eden1919]

@fruitisgood  thanks yeah i have been trying other things cause meditation is not cutting it at the moment but i am still struggling a lot i dont think it is just the thoughts being there that is the problem i think it is the content of the thoughts that is bothering me the most. 

@REDLINEZ750  i am not really into ai i think it is bad for the environment so i try not to use it personally but i am glad you have found something that works for you. 

@Oaktree  leaves on a stream makes things worse for me sadly. 

[TunedIn]

Hi @Eden1919 

I can hear that you're struggling a lot with the thoughts you're experiencing, and in particular the content of the thoughts. Are you needing support with your safety tonight? If so, is there someone you can speak to right now? 

  

You can call any of the following services for immediate support: 

  

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat 

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling 

I hope this helps 🌿

TunedIn🌷