@Sophie1, in all honesty, most of my garden looks a mess. But it's a productive mess, and I'm hoping to make it more so this year than it's been for a while. (More productive... not more messy. 😛 )
I've had a few years lately when I haven't had "the heart" to get much done. Too burnt out. And too many times when I've been away at my parents house at the times when I really needed to be preparing and planting garden beds. But this year, "stay at home" has meant we've had less pressure on us, and it's feeling great getting stuck into the garden in a big way.
Years ago, I was growing a lot of our fruit and vegs. With a mind to the unpredictability of life, I put a lot of perennial and self seeding food plants in, along with a lot of tough perennial ornamentals and flowering bulbs and self seeders. These have kept ticking along, producing fruit, herbs, flowers and a small but useful range of veggies, when I had little choice but to let the rest go, and ask Hubby to slash down the weeds. Sometimes I've been so down that seeing the "toughies" in full flower made me feel like crying, as if my emotions didn't know how to go towards happiness anymore so just amplified the sad instead....
This year, I'm glad to say that I'm finding the garden a genuine pleasure. 🙂 So to that end, I've bought some more seeds today... and some more protective wire baskets to keep the rats from raiding them!
