well im back again...
i dont expect a huzzah
i roll my eyes and swolow the lump in my throat and continue
ive been riding the rollercoaster
i gripped tight onto the bar and waited the next series of ups and downs
but they didnt come
just a dark and crushing low
deep is the sea
heavy is the head that wears the crown
or pirates tricorn in my case
heres a poem cos thats all im good for
if someone knows what its like to question whats real
then please tell me
because i fear noone knows what its like to just not feel
so please help me
cos my dreams have become so dark now
and it suits me
ive dne nothing wrong ive hurt no one
but still i feel so f@#king guilty
i contemplate the path i take
one lonely pouring rain
is the sombre joy real or fake
i just cannot explain
the tears have not rained in years
like an old friend moved away
anxiety without any fears
head full of words with nothign to say
i wish to k!ll my pain
want to drown my sorrow
need to imprison my brain
cos i see no tommorow
cant make sense of this haze
cant find a f@#king friend
im lost within a maze
listening to a song with no end
so look right through me
tell me im crazy
tell me im good for nothing
thats all you ever gave me
maybe im insane
maybe its true
i feel so much pain
and i blame you
